Do you fee like your life is a movie?Are you beginning to understand the patterns in some strange or amazing way. Are the twists and turns making sense?After having many roller coaster rides and upheavals, I believe I am seeing the big picture. Of coarse, I know I have “help from above” but this does not make things easy. We have to believe, believe, believe. I will admit that I am seeing a connection to all the “disconnectedness” I have felt. I was speaking to someone last night about these storms and I saw myself in her.I tried to re-assure her and be the light in her path. Although I am just beginning to see light that flickers on the horizon, I am still practicing life”one day at a time”. It is comforting that we can rely on something greater than ourselves to lead us.I know I was going through another test of learning to trust.The strange thing is now that I am able to look a little further ahead I really don’t want to. I like my day-to-day planning. I am accustomed to not looking ahead into the coming months
I was on a treadmill type of journey moving along at a pace that I was able to handle. I maintained my “I can do it” attitude. However, when this path shifted and the cosmic rug was pulled out from underneath me,I have to admit I felt lost.While in the eye of the storm I saw life one day at a time.Needless to say this was a huge relief. I now see this as a great way to live and feel fortunate for holding on to this idea. Seeing that this is an idea of faith, I believe we are rewarded for seeking to live “one day at a time”.
I heard author Wayne Dyer say that when we live in the moment releasing all the pressure to strive that we actually make more progress.We move more freely in our lives and can handle following our hearts more easily. It is the pressure we put on ourselves to succeed that can actually stop us from doing what we want to do.
However, with new opportunities surfacing as a result of my trust in the process, I am seeing further down the road.Consequently, I am wanting to climb back into my nest.Shouldn’t I hibernate a little longer? Probably not. What I have learned is that coming back to a better place can be as difficult as leaving your comfort zone. When it is time to spread your wings and fly after being in the storm you may think twice about having to take that initial flight.How can you resist though when you hear and feel the possibilities in the distance? The star you have been reaching for is within reach.The swans I saw the Meher Center in Myrtle Beach know when it is time to return to their home in Canada. The grace that they represented was profound. To think that just a few short weeks ago I saw them and I am now reaping the rewards of this grace.The reward is gift of possibility.I will quote Paul Newman as I did in a previous post ,”the best thing we can give each other is the gift of possibility”.You too, can allow it to come to you.The storms have calmed.It is time.
Love and Light,
Deborah
“Much is expected of those to whom much has been given”
I would like to rephrase this to “those who have been given much will love the gift of giving”.
Once this idea of giving becomes part of your thinking it is difficult to turn back.The sense of “I have to give” changes to “I love to give”.Giving fills you with meaning in your life.It weaves through your soul and becomes an essential part of your being.It makes you wonder how you lived before you became a person who gives back. I know how I lived. I felt like the stump of a tree. No roots, parched, and without purpose. I am balanced at my way of thinking and realize that giving too much can leave me feeling empty too.
Getting over this hump of “I have to give” to “I love to give” takes time. Your whole being will shift in a direction that you have never known before. You will feel yourself waking up to someone you have been waiting for your whole life.
It is a lot like having a child. Many wonder how they lived without their children. The meaning they bring is infinite. Similarly, a life of giving brings you purpose. You question why you had not awakened many years ago. It makes you wonder if you could be this person at an earlier stage in life. Often, this arrival comes through pain and struggle. All of the events in your life add up to this time of a new you. The universe says, ” My child, you finally arrived and we have been waiting for you”.
The person you now have become understands all your unraveling was not easy. Often, you have felt like the storms would not end. You long for sun, warm weather, and the warm ocean to cleanse your mind. You want to call your favorite motivational author on talk radio and ask him” why is this happening”. Of coarse, I am speaking of myself. As I was thinking about all the storms in my life, I thought about asking a wise person for understanding. My answer came over the airwaves. Another caller had asked the same question and my prayer was answered. The author had been through three times as many storms and saw his life in a positive light. “New levels, greater devils”. The risks are high while pursuing a path of change but the rewards are rich. Hoping that everything will be perfect creates a sense of fear and guilt when things naturally fall apart.Let them go. The meaning will set in.It may not be the meaning others have about the storms you experienced but your spirit will understand it perfectly. It will be unique to you. We are all individual creations of spirit and our understanding our life situations is personal and sacred. Forgiveness helps you know that you were doing the best you could do at the time. The recipe for the new you who loves to give includes going through many fires.
The universe is waiting for you to show up to your new way of life. All you have gone through was necessary. Your new, giving way of life will take you to places you never dreamed.You have passed the final exams and are ready for the real world in a new way. A life on purpose.
Love and light,
Deborah
“There are years that ask questions and years that answer”.-Zora Neale Hurston
Winter has a way of rebirthing our souls. Over the next few months the old part of ourselves will continue to shed. Walking on the beach the other day I felt I could see eternity.There is something about the setting sun that gives you perspective and of the past, present, and the future. I could see the big picture.The death of my brother this past month is teaching us lessons about life. Although he did not live well because of his alcoholism, the growth my family has experienced over the last several years seems to include my father’s death too.Spirit is embraces all, and gives us answers to questions of our heart.All that we contemplate will be answered, especially after something as painful as a family member dying. My brother is in a better place with my dad. I feel pain and peace at the same time.It makes you wonder and ask yourself “what if” things were different would he still be here, but you realize that is futile.Now that they are together, I sense my dad is taking care of him.There is still the presence of both of them and it is peaceful that they are together. Dad’s have a way of taking care of you that no one else can do, even after they are gone.You know what they would say in situations.You know that after they are gone all that is left is the good, caring, and loving aspects of these people. After so much turmoil with my brother this is a burden lifted, almost immediately.Spirit is powerful and at work. All the human effort we used to try to help was nothing compared to how spirit can right the wrong.Each day that goes by answers to all the questions I have had are being answered.”He had an appointment” said our elderly grandmother.These few words made sense more than any other. Our human mind shifts perspective and peace sets in. At times having faith seemed impossible however, after reading inspiring stories about people who faced insurmountable hardships you feel strength to go on. Death is not an ending but a beginning. A new way of seeing those who have left us. The shift in our perspective can be easy or difficult depending on how we are perceiving death.After we make sense of a person leaving us in the best way that we can, then hindsight’s and understanding come to you.The answers and peace you feel are a way of spirit speaking to your heart.
Love and Light,
Deborah
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.-Carl Jung
I have dreams. I want to keep them alive. Some days they appear to shrivel up and crumble like ashes. Some days they are so alive they dance like its Mardi gras through my heart. I believe this is called manifestation. Shoot for the moon even if you miss it you will land among the stars.How many times have you heard this? If we keep our dreams alive they will come. The manifestation part is a rocky ride and will have highs and lows.However, because things seem bleak does not mean it is over. A black or white attitude is one of separateness. I was reading earlier how our minds like to keep things separate.”Our split off mind, the part that seems out of contact with our Source-our highest mind or self-is the part that we often identify with.It has thoughts that believe we are apart from god-thought it thinks without connection to spirit”.The book is called “Listening” by Lee Coit and it explains how to increase awareness of your inner guides. We all have a guidance system. Our split mind and it’s thoughts and feelings combine to create emotionally charged ideas. Hopefully we can recognize what is true before we feel too imbalanced and upset.
When did your mind take off and running? What manifested as a result of this split mind. Does our split mind takeover before we come up with new ideas? I think depending on our emotional barometer that day our split mind can increase or decrease our ability to remain calm and poised. Feel your feelings letting out all that is not true and what you no longer need fall off like ashes. Let your mind wander but also let it hold on to what is true and while leaving the rest behind you.Dreams have a way of doing this. Your heart is a manufacturer of you and creating what you came here to do. Your mission is to follow this and allow it to flow through you. You life is waiting.
Love and Light,
Deborah
“Think about how many times I have fallen, Spirits are using me, larger voices callin” -
-Crosby, Stills, and Nash
I was feeling a loss. The shift in my thinking today was one of confusion. It snowed here in our little town near the beach. The storm covered the southern states. It was a fluke.My daughter was out throwing snowballs with the neighbor kids. It was great to see them having fun together. I have retired from snowballs because I grew up in Michigan. I was more worried about whether we would have power because so many were losing it in this freezing, snowy weather.
Our plans to go to our spiritual retreat in Myrtle Beach as requested by Meher BaBa himself were postponed a day.He calls me to come to his”home in the west”. I am not one of his followers but I do love the many acres of woods at the Meher Center. Simple cabins, community kitchens, nurturing conversations with people from all over the U.S. Who could ask for more?. I meet great people who relax, enjoy nature, and feel the peace of the many acres of woods hidden in the midst of Myrtle Beach restaurants, tourists, and traffic jams. I also love this place because as a child I walked the beach many times while on family vacations. Little did I know that as an adult I would discover the Meher center right next door . I am older and wiser now but the memories are there of the Apache campground where I camped on the beach with my brothers, sister, mom and dad.I remember the beach went on forever, but I would not venture beyond a certain point where the hotels stopped.This was the area I would return to for spiritual renewal as an adult. It was private and secluded woody area.Meher BaBa’s home in the west. I know my dad loves this place too. As I wake in the morning at the Meher Center I can hear my dad saying he walked the beach here in the morning while we were still in our camper.I see his spirit in this early hour while the sun is coming up.It is as if there is no time. Dad is smiling.
I feel my father guiding me now and showing me how he still loves this beach. I believe my dad is a lot like Patrick Swayze in the movie Ghost. He guides me and helps me with my life. Often, I act like Demi Moore in the movie being skeptical but it is too powerful too ignore. The words I hear are soft from him and usually one or two words at a time.However, I know it is my dad who guides me. I received affirmation today when the movie “Ghost” came on.
My mother told me it was one of his favorites. I understand Whoopi when she was skeptical at first by Patrick yet eventually learns to trust him. Often I feel compelled to tell my mother things and assist her even though she is stubborn.I know my dad wants us to “help and care for your mom” because he left us so suddenly with heart failure 12 years ago. He said in a letter “take care of your mom”. I feel like I take leap after leap in the dark. My siblings are not as convinced as I am. I know there are others out there who experience these spirits who have crossed over because I hear your stories.I have become a magnet for spirits and others who encounter them.If you still feel skeptical read bits and pieces of Allison Dubois’s book from the show “Medium”. Her experiences with the spirit world are more detailed and astounding.
Do you have an experience with a deceased friend or relative? Leave your story or experience and feel the gratitude of having this person still in your life.Look for the small details of how this spirit is guiding and helping you in your life.
Love and Light,
Deborah
Gently down the stream. Merrily , merrily, merrily …life is but a dream. About this time of year we are looking forward to spring. It is February, and a time for love. A return to love. The fall was intense shedding our selves and falling into a new season after summer. Christmas brought a new inner life for ourselves and by this time this new self is crowning,birthing, and in March we will see ourselves blooming. All of these pieces that we bring into the new year will hopefully be rooted in love and nurtured, taken care of, tended to the way you would take care of a garden full of roses. We may still have the same life experiences, however, it is the little changes in ourselves that can be directed and loved to create and birth a new aspect of yourself. If we are here to learn and grow at any age then this needs to be a conscious choice in any moment to remember this. It can be as simple as monitoring what we eat to working at a project for a little while even though we may feel reluctant and unable to get inspired. Small steps usually help me get there. I have also been considering volunteer work again which I did for many years. I read that volunteering is on the rise nowadays which is good for our spirit.
Creation reveals its secrets by and by, listening to what it is trying to reveal to us can be challenging, but it can also be fruitful. We have an of an idea of what is to come if we listen. If we can believe for a moment, then we can believe again and again until our spirit is ready to be lifted up to a higher place.Each time we will let go of any old wounds we have had, trusting that we no longer need these old worn out ways.
Allowing our lives to unfold in ways we could not imagine. Taking these small steps can be empowering. It is a relief to know we don’t have to do it all ourselves and there are angels leading us to a new place we have been longing for. Perhaps this place has been there for us all along however, we did not realize it until it was revealed to us bit by bit. If we practice listening with small attempts to hear what we need to know then we can be certain the larger voice is there for us calling us in ways we could not imagine. Believe, believe, believe, and believe again. Trust is another aspect of believing and we can be certain that if we trust it will all work out for the best. We really don’t have a choice but to believe do we?. Walk by faith and not by sight.
Love and Light,
Deborah
I was was in my room getting ready for the next day and got this idea about a runaway train. I love trains and a runaway train describes my life perfectly. I believe the law of attraction works like this.Switching tracks and traveling distances only to return to the same place but with a different perspective. I have heard many authors say that they never expected to be where they are but they followed their path and surrendered then followed again and again to find themselves in a place they never dreamed. I am just starting to see some truth in this runaway train lifestyle. I am arriving at a place I could not have imagined.
I was with a couple of friends tonight and had some great conversations about the spirit world. We had a couple of visitors(deceased people) and of coarse they said a few things. One of the deceased that visited was a person I wrote about earlier in a post. My friend Carrie seems to pick up those who have passed and names of people at rapid pace. It’s like a faucet that won’t shut off. When I encounter the deceased I know who they are and they usually say a few things or show me certain things. For instance , I saw a grandmother around my friend Chelsea. A little later I saw another grandmother. Both of these grandmothers had something to offer Chelsea as far as strength. Carrie then asked me if I knew who Larry was and I said, “Oh, of coarse”, he’s back “. Carrie was happy that she could match a name to a person that I knew.She usually picks up my dad, but this time it was Larry.He had a strong presence in the world and of coarse like my father these spirits show up because they want us to hear them and what they have to say.
I explained to my friends the story about Larry and how I once knew him many years ago. After an old friend told me about his death I dream’t about him a few days later.Carrie said he was going to come to me in a dream again.
As I mentioned in my previous post, he explained some things to me a dream and it made a lot of sense to me.I believe he wants to talk to his family and friends. I run into his friend every few months but I am not sure he is ready to hear about my communication with Larry. Carrie said he was telling her about a red couch.It may have been in his house that he lived in at the time of his death. Talking about him again brought up some feelings that I have not felt in years. “Old friends, they shine like diamonds”. Although I have not seen him in 10 years, I am glad he visits because there is a healing taking place within me about him. Looks like the spirit world is revealing its healing nature yet again. As I mentioned, the deceased are here to help, and I am proof that they want us to heal.Dreams and visits from them usually are relaying a message about forgiveness and helping us to heal in this world. I didn’t know that I needed healing, however, it feels good to release some of the past.I am grateful though for his presence and how he spoke to us today. It shows me I have a lot to learn from these people in spirit. All of the wounds we carried are forgiven and that makes all the difference for us here in the world.
Love and Light,
Deborah
True imagination is not fanciful daydreaming; it is fire from heaven. -Ernest Holmes
I was contemplating this quote today by Ernest Holmes because I saw it twice and experienced my own flame last night- a personal flame.
I had a feeling with the long weekend that something like this would happen.
Free time to contemplate and grow.
With the MLK holiday yesterday I decided to meet with a friend and my daughter came along with us to have fun on a day off.
I thought some shift might happen as we were practicing “the art of allowing”. We wandered downtown and to Starbucks to sit out in the warm air. It was a beautiful day to do this.
After our relaxing afternoon my daughter and I had some feelings surface between the two of us. As a single parent with a health problem we have had many mountains to climb. I think this doubt that surfaced had to do with both of us and our dance in life. She has been patient and wonderful and I want so much for her, yet sometimes the obstacles we encounter in our life are one too many .The desire for “more” mixed with “want” crops up like an unwelcome virus. I look for signs and and follow hunches, ideas, and direction from my inner guidance. I pray for us. I pray for others. It is a fine line and a balancing act to keep your hopes and dreams in place-especially being a single mother. Practicing simplicity is easy for me but for a teenager that is another story. Fortunately, she has her 35mm camera as a way to follow her bliss and get out of herself.I am grateful for the class she took at school where she discovered photography and the teachers who nurture that.
I have learned to live with the idea that we are abundant in whatever situation we are in.
As I am excavating this new life with my readings to help others, I believe I am working with the fire in my heart-the dream I have and how to make it blossom. These flames surface as the dream unfolds.
The dance of our dreams seems to be a little bit of a rumba back and forth, then a side step. When you’ve danced too much and are at your limit, you lose balance and fall.
Which dream on your cosmic stove is simmering or boiling over? For someone like me falling down the rabbit hole was normal-the artists way. My favorite quote from many years ago is “If I knew where I was going I would be lost.”
Although we may try to plan our dreams a flame will surface and reveal something new to you.Your plans will be adjusted. Your dance will include a new sidestep. The best prescription I can suggest for you is to keep things light like the angels do.You will align with your bliss more quickly.
As your dreams take shape, hopefully the sidesteps and the rumbas will expand and be easier to handle. Better yet the rabbit holes will be fewer and far between. Your vision will be clearer and you will have the strength to begin your next goal and understand the process. The important part is to keep your faith and believe.
Love and light ,
Deborah
“Holding Hands With A Spirit”
While at a Law of Attraction meeting today I was talking with my friend Carrie of Diary of a Spiritual Medium and she asked “what do you see when you meet people, do you see medical problems?” Although I do pick up insights about a persons health that is not always the first thing I see. I think it depends on the state of that persons health. The things I do pick up and come to me easily are the relatives who have passed away. Yes, I see dead people. It seems like lately I have encountered friends talking about friends and family who have died. Within one week I heard several stories of people dying and an elderly woman I knew passed away-she was 93. It only takes a few moments and I can hear the information these deceased want to relay to their relatives and friends.
The spirit world is always ready to talk to us.We are the ones who are skeptical and fearful. It seems so silly because now that I have had all these awakenings about those who have passed over into spirit, I know that they just want to help and enlighten us to how they see things which is with love.
As I listen to these stories of those who have passed away, I know what comes next.I hear them or dream of them.It is a big responsibility I have been given by the universe to hear these people and see them. Sometimes I want to say to these spirits “oh , not now please-but I will get back with you later” because it can be hard to shut off these spirits who come to visit and who are around everyone…and I mean everyone!Right now you have 2 or 3 deceased relatives around you whether it is an uncle or grandmother or parent they are with you and I happen to pick it up pretty fast. Family has always been important to me and I think that is why I pick them up more quickly. Around New Years, I encountered stories of people passing away from a couple of friends and realized that this was something I will be encountering more of.At first I was feeling uncomfortable about hearing of those who died because a couple of them I knew and they were my age. It was hard to hear of their deaths, but I thought this was something I needed to get used to hearing.
Consequently, I dream’t about one of them. He was a friend of my friends and I knew him briefly 25 years ago while in college.He is from a well known family in the town I live in.Back then we were free spirits and a little on the rebellious side. All these years later, I feel blessed to be alive and well while thanking god everyday for my life with my daughter.
The news affected me and I felt down for a few days. When I dream’t of him I knew he was trying to relay a message to me. I won’t go into detail about the dream but I think he was more or less trying to apologize to me or give me an answer about why he acted the way he did many years ago.It was a relief to have the dream but a part of me thought “you know it doesn’t matter anymore because it was 25 years ago” However, through hindsight, I do appreciate what he said in the dream because I know now these spirits don’t want us to live in fear, guilt, or shame. The deceased want to free us from all of our worldly fears.They want us to “live”.I do feel some kind of closure from the dream and perhaps I need to be more thankful for having him visit. If you ask you may be able to call up someone you know who passed away. I have a feeling in a few months you would be having visitors just like I do. Please try not to send them away.The spirit world is here for us to learn and they want to help us make our lives easier while we are here. We know that once you are in the spirit world all your worldly cares are gone and that is the message they want to share with us. Free your hearts and minds while you are here on earth. This is the lesson they want to share with us.
Love and Light,
Deborah
Train station in London
In the Harry Potter movies there is a scene where Harry is leaving to Hogwarts and has to go through a wall at Platform 9 3/4 to get to his destination at Hogwarts.He walks through this brick wall easily and comes out to board a train on the other side. This photo was taken in London and someone decided to make this platform a reality as a way to remember the movie we all loved.When Harry answered the call to become a wizard he was following his dharma.
Dharma is the possessing of a certain ability, power, and spiritual strength.It is the unique combination of spiritual brilliance and skill.I believe Harry taught us all a little about following our path at all costs. Through his trials and tribulations, he then became a famous and beloved wizard.
With the New Year here in 2010 we can know that our dharma is waiting for us.I believe we all our wizards and have the ability to perform magic.Maybe you don’t know a card trick or how to levitate like Criss Angel, but there is some ability you have that would let your spirit soar. We each have this. It is a gift to us for being human.We can make it our goal to seek it out and learn how to use it.
I am excited that the year is 2010. The number 10 has significance because it means “completeness of order, nothing lacking, and nothing over”.The cycle is complete and everything is in place.Therefore it represents “perfection of divine order”.
So many of us have ideas rolling around inside of what we want to do in our lives. With the new year we can see things from a more magical perspective to alleviate some of the pressure the economy has left us with. As people who thrive we can make something good come out of our world. I know there are many who have projects or goals you want to start but get stuck and held back. Believe me..I know this from experience being an artist. I used to say if I can touch the brush to the canvas I can get the flow going.Getting there was the hardest part.
What are some of the ideas and projects you have inside you? One leads to another and they multiply like rabbits.
I knew a younger woman who was a single parent and a personal chef for clients. There is woodworking, pet sitting, or assisting seniors like I do. I am amazed at some who have started a big business such as a cafe or restaurant the past year- I have seen it done! Entrepreneurs usually see a downturn in the economy as an opportunity to grow.
With the year 2010 we can envision a more magical perspective that our dharma is waiting. The wall at platform 9 3/4 will be easier to walk though if you know in your heart what your passion is. You will love what you do and become fearless in your efforts!
The doubters of the world are always there . However, when you do arrive at that imaginary platform, you can say “I did it”. The wall will come down with your presence and personal power.You took the steps needed to make a dream come true.
Love and light,
Deborah
